old friends

A friend is coming tomorrow for a visit. I'm amazed when I think that we met in 1987! Other than my family, I've never stayed in touch with anyone this long! We usually connect only a couple times of year now, but when she's in the southwest or I'm in the midwest, we try to see each other.

I'm grateful that we have stayed friends. We met when we were both starting college -- literally a lifetime ago. Our lives have changed so much in the last 20 years (as they should!) but it's comforting to have that connection to my 20 year old self.

I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed at life, and a little nervous of potential judgment by her. She has no children, and I know she is of the opinion that couples should have no more than two. I feel that I have to be an example of grace -- that I should be able to effortlessly handle my children and my home. Unfortunately, I'm feeling rather graceless these days.

The truth is -- she won't judge me. We couldn't have remained friends this long if there was judgment by either of us. Deep down, I have to believe that she accepts me and my choices.

But, I still can wish that things were a little more together around here. And, hopefully the boys won't act like hellions.