hormones

We own multiple copies of books that have the lyrics for the "12 Days of Christmas", plus a couple different variations ("12 Leaping Lizards" and "Elmo's 12 Days" for instance). Somehow, however, in my 17 Christmas music CD's, we didn't own a sung version of the carol.

I searched on Amazon, and found the John Denver & Muppets Christmas Carol CD and remembered that I loved the version on there -- with Miss Piggy singing about the "5 golden rings . . ." The price was only $3.99, so I couldn't resist and snapped up a copy.

Last night at dinner, I put in the CD. The first song is "12 Days" and we all enjoyed listening to it. Then, a couple other songs . . . then the song about "giving a penny, and if you haven't got a penny, a ha-penny will do . . . " came on. I always liked that song, and started to sing along, then burst into tears.

Then, I started laughing, because it seemed ridiculous. And, I burst back into tears. I finally had to leave the table to try to get some control back, with all the men in my family trailing behind -- very concerned and consoling.

DH kept asking what was wrong, and I kept replying nothing. I finally realized that the carol - especially sung by the Muppets - reminded me of my paternal grandmother -- and grandfather. It triggered some memories and at that moment I missed them both so much. (They died in 1994 and 1989.) My grandmother had this CD, which I forgot until it was playing. It was one of her favorites, and she played it during the season when I lived with her during college. My grandparents also took me to see a Muppets movie when I was young - it was the only movie we went to together, and I remember it was a very special afternoon. I was sad, and worn out the rest of the evening. Ugh. I know a big part of it is pregnancy hormones, but it's exhausting and confusing!

On a brighter note, I picked up 2 pink onesies yesterday! They have AZ Diamondback logos on them, and were on clearance. They are cute! I left them hanging from the back of one of our kitchen chairs so I could show the boys and they both saw them this morning, and exclaimed about how cute they were. It was sweet to see how excited they still are about this baby.

Earlier this week, we met a friend at the mall with her 6 month old. He was tired of sitting in his stroller, so I was carrying him. N looked at me and said "You know you can't keep him?" And I replied that I knew that. A minute or so later he said "When are you going to give him back?" And I replied in a few minutes. Another minute and he said "I think it's time to give him back NOW." I asked him if he knew that I would have to carry our new baby a lot after she was born, and he just looked at me. I laughingly handed the baby back to my friend and gave N a big hug. We'll have to make sure he doesn't feel left out this spring!